It’s a Mirage
Is it a dream… Will I wake up from this bittersweet dream that I am in?
Walking in this desert all alone, slipping into this abyss of nothingness.
Mouth is dry, searching for water for this weary soul. Only to come to a mirage in the sand. Looking up at the sky as the vultures come to take my soul away. Wishing that all of this would end. One day I will wake up and come alive. But for now I will just lay here as they pick at my soul.
subconsciousness
Slipping into subconsciousness with the world spinning around me.
Looking for a way out of the games we play, how can it be this way?
Still searching as I slip deeper still in this subconscious world that
I have created for myself. Trying to find my way to the top in this gloomy
hole in the ground but instead I am 6 feet under. Don’t cry for me, for your
pain will go away. My pain is here to stay.
Lessons learned
I never claimed to be a perfect soul.
Learning from mistakes.
Guarding my heart so I
don’t get hurt. I don’t plan
on opening up my heart again
to feel the pain within.
I take it one day at a time.
Learning my lesson to
never fall in love again.
Intimacy
A truly pure treasure
That should never be bound
Between kindred souls
The piercing desire for the affection
Once shared
In all but hollow rooms
Filled with our passions hang on the walls
Symbols of the former time
How could this intimacy
Have been replaced
By mere random things……
missing you
Yesterday has all but gone Although still lingers heavy Oh how I miss my friend My compradre My confidante Tear filled eyes longing for yesterdays understanding That shouldn’t be forgotten Seeking with intense admiration Desire the attention we use to give. I wonder if this friendship Scatters with the four winds And day by day it passes Ever so slow……………..Emotions come undone.
the holidays
The holidays aren’t the same since you went away.
Missing you like crazy this time of year. Wishing that
you were here. I know in my heart you are in a better
place but the selfish part of me still wish you were here.
I know you are here with us in spirit, watching us grow,
watching us laugh and cry through the good times and the
bad ones. You will always be in my heart.
I love you grandma. I miss you!
Blogging from my smart phone…
There are so many apps out there for smart phones now days. So on that thought, when my husband said that there was a word press app for android. I has to install it. So here is my first blog post from my phone.
There will definitely be more posts coming from my phone.
Later
Amanda
The Small Voice within the Noise…
The Small Voice within the Noise
Beneath the noise of this daily life, is a still small voice.
This Still Small Voice is longing for you to draw near to Him.
He wants to walk with you.
He wants to talk with you.
He longs to draw up up into the
shelter of His wings and protect
and comfort you.
To take you to His secret place, is what He longs for.
So erase the noise and hear the Still Small Voice,
the Father.
He loves you and wants a relationship with you.
disconnected
Disconnected… wow what a bad feeling. I have been disconnected for awhile now from facebook and email. One good thing to know that we will never bee disconnected from God. It says in Ps 91:14-16- vs 14- The Lord says,”I will rescue those who love me. I will protect those who trust in My name. vs. 15- When they call on me, I will answer; I will be with them in trouble. I will rescue them and honor them. vs.16- I satisfy them with a long life and give them My salvation.
Know that no matter how bad that disconnected, isolated feeling is that when you pray God is there to answer. You will never get disconnected from God. He, Himself, wants a relationship with you, one where there is communication.
You do however must disconnect yourself from the distractions that so easily be sets us. He is a jealous God and He desires to have that alone time in the secret place with you.