A little over a year ago, I was diagnosed with depression. It was hard for me to do everyday task. It was so hard to be happy. Nothing or no one could make me happy. I was having inner battles inside myself that I felt like I was losing minute by minute. So thus, I went to my doctor and she prescribed me some anti-depressants and gave me a referral to see a counselor. I was ashamed to admit that I was depressed. The anti-depressants made me feel nothing… I mean I didn’t have any emotions. It was like I was just there. I guess it was good though, cause I look back, I could have had a mental breakdown. My counselor was awesome. He helped me to get the things that was going through my head out. I felt so much better every time I went.
But most of all, I thank God, having a wonderful husband, friends, and co-workers who helped me. If it wasn’t for God, I would still be there in that dark place. If it wasn’t for my husband being there and supporting me. I feel like I would have fallen and not gotten back up. He was there in the darkest of times. He showed me God’s unconditional love and forgiveness. My friends and co-workers were there to listening to me. I am grateful to have such wonderful people in my life. Even the receptionist at the counselor’s office always had a smile on her face. It made my day brighter to see her smile. The co-workers who didn’t give up on me were awesome. I am grateful to have them in my life, especially when I was in my darkest place.
Thank you God for putting these wonderful people in my life.
As of July of 2009, I have not had one anti-depressant. I have learned to talk about what is going on in my head with my spouse. Yes, there are times that I feel the depression creeping up on me. When this happens, I look back and see how blessed I am that I no longer that depressed person and how God brought me out of it. I don’t want to go back there again.
So if you feel like you are depressed, like there is no hope. Look to God, find someone you can confide in. Get help!
Edited: February 2nd, 2010
