So close yet so far away…

How I wish to hear my father say how sorry he was for not

being there when I needed him.  Or just be there period.

So close yet so far away… He sits on the couch but never speaks

watching television intently. Drowning the cares of this world… he sits.

He sits there.  My sisters and I runs up to him and say,”Daddy, daddy… will

take us fishing… will you just spend some time with us.”  We jerk his hand as if to

say come on daddy, play a card game with us. Don’t ignore us.  Be our father…. not

try to be a lover.  A father… is someone who guides you to do right.  A father is someone

who wants to spend time with us.

In your mind… being a father is all twisted, disturbing, behavior…. making do things we as little girls should not be doing… You have a sick mind.  A sick mind makes ones heart sick.

I do love you daddy.  Deep in my heart of hearts, there is still love for you… the kind of love a daughter should have.

I hope you get well!  I release my grudges against you.  I forgive you for the wrong you have done to us… to me… for the pain you have caused in my life.  I hope one day, we can have a father and daughter relationship.

Edited: March 31st, 2009

5 days til my b-day and 7 days til my mom, sister, and nephew.

TO ME!!!!!!

5 days til my birthday!   About 7 days til my mom, sister, and my nephew come down.   I am so excited!!!  We are going to have so much fun!!!

Anywho,  just a little burst of energy. LOL!!!

Edited: March 25th, 2009

Life's challenges

As the day comes to an end so does the many challenges of life. One by one, we conquer them. The challenges of our lives shows us and the world that we are still alive and that one by one we conquer them. If you shall fail the challenge that you are facing, Don’t give up. Get up and start a new.  The dawn breaks… The wind blows…. The oceans roar… It’s time for a new challenge.  WE ARE ALIVE!!!

Edited: March 20th, 2009

SPRING HAS SPRUNG!!!

Well spring has sprung here on the beach.  Spring breakers are in town.  The stores here are crowded.  The beaches are getting crowded.   But other than that, all is well.  My momma, sister; Jessica, and my nephew are coming down April the 2nd.  I am so excited we are going to have so much fun. My mom keeps asking me what we are going to do.  I have some ideas on what we are going to do.   But I can’t say anything to her just yet.  Anyhow, we plan on having fun, and that is all that matters.   The weather is so nice here.  It is in the 70s.  The kids are begging for me to take them swimming. I feel like the water would be to cold to go.

Edited: March 9th, 2009