How does it feel

when the world around you feels like its has turned upside down

where there is chaos all around.  How does it feel when you know

you can’t reach out to the one person that you have realized that

you truly love because you have hurt them so. When you realize all hope

is gone and no one around to turn too… how does it feel.  How does it feel

to lay awake crying in dispair because of the mistakes you have made How

does it feel.  You know the answers are there if you just look up, but you are

just to weak to look up. So you tilt your head to the sky and scream:

HEAVENLY FATHER HELP ME!!! HELP ME IN THIS TIME OF NEED!!!

Edited: January 18th, 2009

We have Battlefields.

We have our battlefields…

On the outside we may seem calm and collect

but on the inside in our minds we struggle

as life’s pressures takes a toll on us.

We begin to struggle with dispair, regrets.

Not only to fight our battles, we must fight

them on the battlefield of our mind.

Our mind, if we give in to the battle defeating us

we cause us to go down the road with to many

curves to many hills and to much dust. We eventually,

get lost. When we have felt the most pressure the most

defeat in our lives is when we become lost. Lost to our God.

Lost to our loved ones. Lost to our own true selves. We

must began the search over again. Why do we continue

to get lost. To let our minds rule over us, to let the

pressures of this life rule over us too. It’s like a

treadmill… you want to get out of the rut that

you are in but you just keep spinning around…

Like a record playing around around.  Like a needle

that gets stuck in a scratch on a record. It keeps

playing over and over. Like that thought that

keeps playing over and over. It begins to rule over you.

Through prayer and through God and some awesome

accountability partners can you over come this battle

YES YOU CAN!!!!

“YES I CAN!!!”

Edited: January 16th, 2009