SHHH!!! It's a secret!!! Tell no one!

Hidden deep within me is a secret
A secret full of pain.
Pain that hurts.
How do I deal with this…. this secret?
Should I bury it with all the others?
Should I deny that it even hurts?
Do I hold my head up high… thank the good Lord for
watching over me?
God knows my pain…
No one else does.
This secret is shameful.
Something from the past.
It pops out at me unexpectingly.
Its always there hidding ready to laugh in my face.
Don’t deny the pain. The pain won’t go away.
It will always be there.
Can I truly love my family and friends while this secret
staring back at me?
I just need to let it go!
Let it go I say… easier said than done.
I thought I have let it go once, twice a whole lot of times.
But it appears out of nowhere from the darkness it appears.
So I sit here and write this little poem… trying to deal with the secret
that causes me so much pain.

Edited: July 31st, 2007

My job… My life… Can it get any better than this?

My job is going great. My boss calls me into his office yesterday and said that its not official yet (paper work and all of that stuff is being worked up and all) but as of today I am going full time… I hear my job has great benefits…. I am so looking forward to this…

My life is really busy right now… The kids have another month til school starts back. YuCK!!!

That means summer is over…. But around here you could never tell it. It stays warm year around especially during the day.

Anyways, talk to you all later!!!
Love you guys,
Amanda

Edited: July 21st, 2007