Sitting on cloud 9… Looking down at the gates of hell. Forgetting the past mistakes… looking forward to the future with you. Love is a roller coaster… with corkscrews… spirals and sharp turns. Where does love take us? No one knows but the One above.
My heart urns for your embrace. How i feel like you are slipping away? Away from me as time ticks still. How I wish I could leave my love for you here. Here where pain is love. Here while I wait for still.
For every tear i cry over you is a tear of missing you. I miss your smile. The way you make me laugh. I look up towards the heavens and every star is in place.How i wish i could see your smiling face.
I know you think of me to, your Snow Bunny who is true. You have my heart in the palm of your hands. How i wish I could stand. One step closer to the abyss that spirals down before me. Should I let go and jump or just stand there in the pouring rain waiting on you to come rescue me. Take me out of this abyss that I am in. I sink deeper and deeper within.
Is it a dream… Will I wake up from this bittersweet dream that I am in?
Walking in this desert all alone, slipping into this abyss of nothingness.
Mouth is dry, searching for water for this weary soul. Only to come to a mirage in the sand. Looking up at the sky as the vultures come to take my soul away. Wishing that all of this would end. One day I will wake up and come alive. But for now I will just lay here as they pick at my soul.
Slipping into subconsciousness with the world spinning around me.
Looking for a way out of the games we play, how can it be this way?
Still searching as I slip deeper still in this subconscious world that
I have created for myself. Trying to find my way to the top in this gloomy
hole in the ground but instead I am 6 feet under. Don’t cry for me, for your
pain will go away. My pain is here to stay.
I never claimed to be a perfect soul.
Learning from mistakes.
Guarding my heart so I
don’t get hurt. I don’t plan
on opening up my heart again
to feel the pain within.
I take it one day at a time.
Learning my lesson to
never fall in love again.
A truly pure treasure
That should never be bound
Between kindred souls
The piercing desire for the affection
Once shared
In all but hollow rooms
Filled with our passions hang on the walls
Symbols of the former time
How could this intimacy
Have been replaced
By mere random things……
The holidays aren’t the same since you went away.
Missing you like crazy this time of year. Wishing that
you were here. I know in my heart you are in a better
place but the selfish part of me still wish you were here.
I know you are here with us in spirit, watching us grow,
watching us laugh and cry through the good times and the
bad ones. You will always be in my heart.
I love you grandma. I miss you!